I think I just need to say things out loud more.
I keep everything in my head and expect people
to know what I mean without me explaining it.
I’m trying to be better about that.
About reaching first.
About letting people know they matter to me,
even if it feels uncomfortable.
I believe that if you show up consistently,
it counts for something.
That people notice, even if they don’t always say it.
Maybe connection is just repetition.
Trying again tomorrow
even if today didn’t connect.
I want to believe effort comes back
if you give it enough time.
That’s what I’m supposed to do,
isn’t it?